Monday, Monday

Not my favorite day for sure.  Especially when I have a huge project to finish by mid-afternoon, and a presentation to prepare for hanging over my head.  I HATE giving presentations, especially on a peer level.

Anyway, so my eating...  I did make out my menu, but I didn't do very well sticking to it.  In fact, I don't think I ate but two meals off my menu since I wrote it.  But, I don't think it was a waste of time at all.  It gave me an opportunity to mentalize all the foods in my kitchen that I CAN and SHOULD eat.  I usually focus on what I can't eat and focusing on what I could eat was good for me.

Friday morning, however, did not go well.  I ate, ate, ate, ate.  Junk, junk, junk, for the first five or six hours of the day.  I felt like crap.  I had eaten like crap on Thursday night too.  I had a conversation with my sister about it on Friday afternoon.  I was moaning about how I couldn't seem to control my eating and why was it so hard and I felt like giving up... major pity party about it.  She strongly urged me to stop and go work out, if nothing else, give myself some happy hormones.  I very, very reluctantly agreed.  Initially I'd had no intention of exercising, but she talked me into it.  I also decided then and there that I wouldn't eat again the rest of the day, except for raw veggies or a salad.  There was no reason to give up the rest of the day to bad eating just cuz i had started out that way.

I also decided I HAVE to stay away from the damn sugar.  It's my kryptonite and I have to stay away from it. 

So, Friday night I jogged/walked five miles and ate nothing else the rest of the day.  I felt my better that night.  Saturday, I ate really well.  NO SUGAR!!  I was already seeing a difference on the scale by Sunday morning.

Sunday I ate well enough.  I did well until dinner at my parents', which turned out to be a major food-fest.  I guess my dad was hungry when he prepared the meal. :)  The really good thing is that because of his diabetes we had sugar-free pie and lean meat and lots of veggies for dinner.  I ate A LOT but healthy foods and no sugar!

Last night I snacked on measured portions of popcorn, broccoli and a cup of hot chocolate with fat-free milk and sugar-free cocoa.  I probably didn't need the added calories, but I figured it was more important for me to concentrate on not eating sugar that not eating at all.  One thing at a time.  I have noticed that since I haven't been eating sugar, I haven't been bingeing in the evening.  Even last night's snacks were eaten over a period of several hours and all in normal portions.

It feels good to feel like I have some control again.